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The Incredible Weirdness of Being a Writer

Posted on 02.05.18 | Holly Robinson | 10 Comments

 

I went on a writing retreat recently. Nothing fancy; this wasn’t one of those places where you’re in a cabin in the mountains and people bring food to your door. This was a low-budget apartment rental with a friend, but it had everything I needed: a kitchen, a gorgeous harbor view, and absolute quiet.

The purpose of writing retreats for me is to tunnel into a project, usually when I’m trying to start something new or finish a book. Works like a charm. However, as I settle into these retreats, there is always this strangely terrifying moment where I think, “What the hell do I think I’m doing?”

It’s such a debutante activity, this whole writing thing. With so many activities vying for our attention, who needs another book in the world? What makes me think I’ll find readers, or even a publisher? Why aren’t I doing something more productive, like working for actual money or volunteering my time to do good in the world?

And yet, I stayed. I wrote. I edited. For forty-eight hours that weekend, I churned out new words and tossed out old ones. I came up with new plot points and emotions for my characters. I resisted, sometimes, the urge to Google various diseases or check Facebook. I came away from the retreat feeling like I’d failed, then read the pages when I got home and thought, “Huh. That’s not half bad. I bet I can revise this into something.”

If you decide to be a writer, there will be times in your life where you will have to commit to the writing. Over and over again, especially after rejections, you will have to commit to keep at it.

What does that writer’s life look like? The one where you commit to the process?

It looks weird to most people. For me, it has meant being a freelance writer instead of a full-time public relations executive (my previous life). That translates into driving an ancient car and being grateful that my husband has a steady salary and provides our family with health benefits.

It has meant staying in on Saturday nights and skipping that movie or party, and editing manuscripts even while technically watching my son’s gymnastic class or my daughter’s field hockey meet. It has meant that many days I never make it out of my sweat pants. And it means suffering a crisis of confidence every time I show a manuscript to critique partners or editors and they say, “This isn’t working.”

Committing to your writing means having the confidence in yourself to keep going, even when all of the signs point to the irrationality of your activity. It means believing that the written word is worth putting on the page, even if you’re the only one who will ever read it. It means believing that writing books is a valuable creative endeavor, even if those books never actually end up between covers.

Being a writer means that you actually write, a lot, and don’t just say you’re going to or you should have or you want to. Over and over again, you must commit to the act of writing instead of spending your time some other, more pleasurable, productive, or profitable way. It means reaching inside of yourself until sometimes you feel turned inside out, and that’s a good feeling, but it can feel awful, too, because you are exposed and vulnerable, especially if your writing does get published.

The decision to commit to your writing is a weird one, no matter how you look at it. But sometimes it’s the only decision that is worth making, because it’s who you are and what you want to be, not just when you are young and passionate and idealistic, but when you are a grown-ass person who has a mortgage and ought to know better.

Sometimes, being a writer is the only life worth living.

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Categories: Beginning Writers, Contemporary Fiction, Fiction Writing, How to Write a Novel, Literary Fiction, Persistence, The Craft of Writing, Uncategorized, Writing Tags: creativity, critique partners, editing, editors, how to write a novel, persistence, the act of writing, the writer's life, writing a novel, writing fiction, writing retreats

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Holly Robinson is a novelist, journalist and celebrity ghost writer. She and her husband have five children and a stubborn Pekingese. They currently divide their time between Massachusetts and Prince Edward Island, and are crazy enough to be fixing up old houses one shingle at a time in both places.

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  1. Julie Unruh says

    February 6, 2018 at 12:56 am

    Thanks, I needed to remember that.

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    • Holly Robinson says

      February 6, 2018 at 8:03 am

      Thanks for stopping by, Julie!

      Reply
  2. Carol Boyer says

    February 6, 2018 at 7:06 am

    Hi Holly, I so loved reading your post about being a writer. Your escape to a retreat getaway to write sounds wonderful and I can see it must be necessary at times to clear your mind and not be distracted from the business of life. I have always loved to write but just for myself, mostly in my many journals. I also do write book reviews and know just how much they must mean to authors. I struggle to get the right words to show how much the book meant to me which makes me honor all the more the time it must take authors to write a book. I am an artist who needs to be motivated and so appreciate how hard it is at times. So I just wanted to say thank you and I look forward to reading more of your books. I remember a quote from your book Chance Harbor – ” having the world be different form our expectations, is pretty much the definition of life”. I love that! It is so true.

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    • Holly Robinson says

      February 6, 2018 at 8:02 am

      Thank you so much, Carol! Your book reviews are WONDERFUL. I can tell how much thought & time goes into them, and I know how much you relate to writers as an artist. So nice to have that connection.

      Reply
  3. Jeff Murphy says

    October 29, 2018 at 2:24 pm

    My older brother reports that when I was eight, I declared my arrangement to wind up an English teacher. In discipline for this terrible certainty, the Fates made sure that in the totality of time, I would turn into an English teacher.

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    • Holly Robinson says

      October 29, 2018 at 2:33 pm

      I love it that you knew what you wanted to do when you were eight. Good for you–and for your students!

      Reply
  4. Lucinda Hodel says

    December 31, 2019 at 12:47 pm

    I used to read a lot of crime fiction, but after reading To Kill A Mockingbird in English class (I loved it) I’ve started to move on to different styles

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    • Holly Robinson says

      December 31, 2019 at 4:18 pm

      Oh, yes, that’s enough to make anyone want to read more genres! Good for you, Lucinda.

      Reply
  5. Sarah Reyna says

    September 4, 2020 at 8:27 am

    Thanks, I’m an artist who needs encouragement and I appreciate how difficult it can be at times. So I just wanted to thank you and I look forward to reading more of your books.

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    • Holly Robinson says

      September 4, 2020 at 10:50 am

      Thanks so much, Sarah. Yes, we ALL need encouragement, especially during these strange times. Best of luck to you with your art projects!

      Reply

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